The family seems to have such a big impact on how we develop, our personality and impressions especially. It was recently that a couple of friends and I came to the decision to find a place together. For me this meant leaving the family, the home I have grown up in and . But it also meant leaving their care to a degree and hopefully a growing independence. At home I have everything I could need or want, food, clean clothing, my own personal space, all sorts of entertainments. There has never been anything really that I wanted and didn’t receive at least at some stage. For example even the nintendo that I had wished for since about the age of 5 I got, although in the form of an xbox for my 18th birthday.
I think there is more to independence then just moving out of the family home, at a deeper level it seems to arise in our psychology. Those thoughts and feelings that make me dependent on what other people think and feel about me. Practicing awareness and self observation, it has been interesting to see actions provoked by an image and feeling in my body related to what “I think” people think about me. But it’s just a mumble jumble in my mind, and wonderful to spot, as in that moment, I no longer had to do what it was telling me to.
The town house is in Fairfield or Alphington. Even the various departments like vicroads seem to have trouble identifying where it is. The street we are on is just new. Trent and Dave, my house mates say G’day below:
It shocks me as quite a big change in environment. I enjoy going home to my family to see them and help out with different things, and returning back to the town house, the contrast can be obvious. Living with two people who are quite keenly practicing the techniques of gnosis is very different. The whole feeling of the house is radically different – I come home and feel like practicing. It is a wonderful help.
Nearby is the Yarra River and its walking tracks, as well as the local Fairfield village. Below is a photo of the nearby Darebin Parklands.
It perhaps marks a new chapter in my life, and hopefully one that will mean a greater understanding of myself and greater self-reliance.